Ymca

Not all is fare, in love and war
Those things that seem fare are often not
And those that seem not fare often are
Not all is fare in love and war
For nothing is fare or perfect,
Those things thet seem perfect are often not
And those thet are, seem not so.

Those hidden sneers viciously masked by their dark eyes.
Their conversation sickeningly sweet, Their body language says it all …I am unilaterally disliked, by the girls at least.
The boys they aren’t so bad, but I know things are being said behind my back, whether mean or friendly, I do not know.
The supervisors are nice, but they are paid to be nice. Mel’ is so nice though. There is nothing to be said about that, she doesn’t care what people think. Well not the people at work anyway.
I know they think I’m some sort of hypocrite, I’m a Christian so I must be. That’s what most people think, I know they’ve told me so.
But most of the time I don’t care, I live for the few hours at home. Which I spend doing school, cleaning my room and cleaning the house. Or If I’m lucky (blessed) I get to read.
Sleep and God are the only solaces for me, in my dreams I can fly away to a place where people like me, and don‘t judge me by how I look. They love me for who I am and not what I am. Anything can happen in dreams. In my dreams work is done fast and in a happy, cheerful mood. I do my school fast, I meet a famous person and convert them to Christ… you can do a lot in your dreams…
With God I can talk my heart out, and I know he will understand, I can cry, and he will comfort me. Who says the best comfort has to be human? God doesn’t need to be physically there, yet he comforts you best. Life is full of teenage tears.
( I had planned to put my poem "teenage tears" here but could not find it here instead, is the story of Nicodemus, written by me you can read quite a bit about him in John chapter 3. Please correct, from the bible only quoting verses, any mistakes I might have made. I have tried to put it in story form.)

Nicodemus helped Joseph of Arimathaea, He brought myrrh and aloes, about a hundred pounds altogether.
He and Joseph had beseeched Pilate that they might take away the body of Jesus Christ to be buried.
And Pilate gave them leave to do so.
And they took the body and wound it in linen clothes with the spices, as the manner of the Jews is to bury
Now in the place where Jesus was crucified there was a garden; and in the garden a new sepulchre, wherein was never a man yet laid.
There laid they Jesus, therefore because of the Jews’ preparation day; for the sepulchre was nigh at hand

Nicodemus remembered the day he had come to know this man Jesus for who he was.
Nicodemus a man of the Pharisees a ruler of the Jews tiptoed as quietly as his long prayer robe would allow. He was coming to see the man Jesus, his question must be answered.
He came by night, for fear that someone would see him, and condemn him.
He came into the place were he knew he would find the man Jesus, and he called
"Rabbi, we know that thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do these miracles that thou do, except God be with him."
Jesus walked from a shadow and answered."Verily, verily, I say unto thee, except a man is born again, he cannot see the Kingdom of God.
And Nicodemus said unto him"
"How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter the second time into his mother’s womb, and be born?"
Jesus answered
"Verily, Verily, I say unto thee, except a man be born water and of the spirit, he cannot enter into the Kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the spirit in spirit.
Marvel not that I say unto thee, ye must be born again. The wind blows were it lists, and thou hears' the sound thereof, but cannot tell whence it comes, and whither it goes: so is every one that is born of the spirit."
And Nicodemus answered
"How can these things be?"
And Jesus answered back.
"Art thou a master of Israel and know not these things? Verily, verily, I say unto thee, we speak that we do know, and testify that we have seen; and ye receive not our witness. If I have told you earthy things, and ye believe not, how shall ye believe, if I tell you of heavenly things? And no man hath ascended up to heaven, but he that come down from heaven, even he Son of man, which is in heaven. And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up: that whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
He that believes on him is not condemned: but he that believes not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
And this is the condemnation, that light has come into the world, and men loved darkness better than light because their deeds were evil. For everyone that does evil hates the light, neither comes to the light, lest his deed should be reproved. But he that does truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they were wrought in God."
Nicodemus had come to know Jesus as his Christ on that night, now the Son of God was lying dead in a tomb, locked and sealed tightly with a large rock. But Nicodemus knew Jesus had died for him, to recompense his sins, so he Nicodemus could live in heaven with his Christ. And he knew within himself that Jesus would not stay dead, he had heard him say he would rise again and walk the earth before he accented into heaven. Only he did not know how this could happen. He left the tomb in a bittersweet mood knowing he himself would never meet his Christ on this earth again, though others might.
And on the first day of the next week which is Sunday, Mary Magdalene rose early when it was still dark, to go unto the sepulcher a saw the stone was rolled away. The she ran to Simon Peter and the other disciple whom Jesus loved (which is John) and told them saying
"They have taken the lord out of the tomb, and we know not were they have laid him"
Peter went therefore, and John to the sepulchre. So they ran both together: and john did out run peter so ha came to the tomb first and he bent down to look and saw the bed clothes lying bur did not enter. Then Peter came and went into the tomb and saw the linen clothes lie, and the napkin. That was about his head, not lying with the linen clothes, but wrapped together in a place by itself. Then came john into the tomb, he saw and he believed.
They left. But Mary stayed by the door and wept. And as she did so she stooped and looked into the tomb. And she saw two angels in white sitting at either end of the bed were the body of Jesus had lain. And they said unto her
"Woman why weep thou?"
She said unto them
" Because they have taken away my lord and I know not were thy have lain him."
And when she had said this she turned around she saw Jesus standing and knew not that it was Jesus…